CELEBRATE This Week: LXXVIII
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There was a time in life when I shopped alone, but wished I wasn’t. I longed for a baby. Watching new parents pull a stroller out of the trunk tugged at tears. Hearing a toddler play in the dressing room next to me hurt my heart. And if you tried to convince me that shopping alone would be a celebration down the road of life, I might have wanted to kick you in the shins.
I celebrate because I like the reminder of how quickly life changes. A decade ago, shopping alone felt like one more stick in my cage of infertility. Today, shopping alone is a rare bliss. Driving home alone at 10:00 last night, I began to consider all the little pricks in life today that might become a rare bliss in a decade.
Every weekday afternoon, our kitchen table is covered with homework. They sit there, snacks on napkins, giggling and calculating and reading. I always wonder why their papers don’t get mixed up. I’m greeted with hugs and then more papers are shoved into my hands…quizzes and field trip forms and tennis registration. The floor is littered with paper and backpacks and kicked-off shoes. I take a deep breath and smile, pushing this thought out of my mind: Why can’t I come home to a clean table? It’s only moments and then they shove their school work into their backpacks, dropping them in the back hall. I’m going to miss this table full of school work someday.
Since bedtime is getting a little later, I’ve started writing before the kids go to bed. I’ve tried moving my writing spot around the house to find a place where I’m out of the way. They follow me. I’m not sure they know they follow me, but they do. Wherever I plant myself to write, they congregate. I’ve decided to love this about them and learn to write with yo-yo strings zipping and hair being brushed and giggles uncontained.
I trip over shoes a lot. They are never Andy’s shoes, but that still leaves 5 of us with shoes around the house. Even if we only have one pair out, that’s 10 shoes to trip over. I know I’ll miss this, because I still miss Karianne’s flip flops that used to sit next to the garage door.
Right now there’s a football on the coach, a baseball cap on the book shelf, a book on the blanket basket, a hair brush on the arm of the couch, and a paper airplane poking out of the jar of flowers on the fireplace mantel. I’m celebrating these things. This is evidence of the life that girl who hated shopping alone longed to have.
She wanted active kids (and a football player would be icing on the cake). She wanted a little boy who loved baseball caps and paper airplanes. She wanted to braid long hair. She wanted a home filled with books and people who loved to read them. She couldn’t wait to buy little shoes.
I will celebrate these things, these common, ordinary, pesky things, because they are powerful and worthy celebrations. When we celebrate the pesky points in life, there is more space in a heart. Complaining fills a heart dark and hard. Celebrating — especially turning a complaint to a celebration — creates space in a heart. This space is where joy takes hold and grows.